Don’t love out of convenience, don’t love out of habit, don’t love our of familiarity, don’t love out of history, don’t love out of pity, don’t love out of lust, don’t love out of replacement, don’t love out of options, don’t love a second best. Because in the end, what you settle for reflects how much you love yourself.
Posted in February 2012 …
27th Feb
I’ve been watching too much kpop nonsense for my own good, noooo I don’t wanna go down that route. It all started with Running Man and now I’ve moved on to watching 2pm videos because of Nichkhun. Lmao. But to be fair, I still don’t like their music so I’m still on the bright side, for now at least. Anyway, 3 episodes later, my essay is still untouched, well done Amanda for getting your priorities right. Side note, Jeannie totally jinxed me with her “you don’t ever see him” comment because I rarely, almost never, bump into him or anything of that sort. But ever since her comment, I’ve bumped into him 3 times in a week, thanks Jeannie. Lmao. Or maybe it’s divine intervention asking me to man up and face my fears. Anyway, back to my essay for now, no sleep till I reach 1000 words and I’ll end off with a too-cute-I-can-die gif. Teehee.
YNWA. 2012 CARLING CUP CHAMPIONS.
Most frustrating/heart attacking 3 hours I had but when they finally won it, the feeling is indescribable. (‘: Liverpool needs to stop putting the fans through penalties but nonetheless, well done lads! Well done to Cardiff as well. The funniest (and also the most asshole) comment I’ve seen was “And Gerrard saves Liverpool again” (referring to Anthony Gerrard). Plus Alonso’s tweet makes it even more (‘: But yes, silverware after 6 long years. (‘: BEST WEEKEND EVER.
25th Feb
- Stratford Upon Avon!
- Most amazing time spent with my two amazing future flatmates heh.
- Easily one of the best days in this country.
- Understood the importance of travelling with the right people, I really doubt anyone can stand travelling with us. lmao.
- Back in Brum, back to reality, back to essay woes.
- Archaeology field trip next Wednesday, whoopeeee!
- Carling Cup Finals tomorrow, excitessssss! High chance of a sign of silverware for Liverpool, finally, fingers crossed!
- Freeing my heart of any form of attachment, except to those who deserves it.
- Throat hurts, please don’t tell me I’m falling ill again. zzzzzzz.
24th Feb
- Belated pancake day @ Naomi’s!
- 6 hours in the library, fuck yeahhhh.
- Stratford upon Avon tmr!
- No, my essay is not done.
- Took me ages to finally find a working link for HIMYM, god this piracy shit is so annoying.
- Robin needs to make her fucking mind up, so annoyed watching her twirl with these guys, so does Blair. #tvwoes
- The part when Robin says, “you’re one of the few things that I can count on, I really don’t wanna mess that up” sounds awfully familiar. I think I’ve finally figured out the T-exT.
- I don’t know how people settle for second best, because I can’t and as much as I wanted a D-istraction, I can’t even bring myself to do it, it’s wrong and a waste of time. You know how some things, you just know from the start and I know it’s not gonna happen. I mean it’s just so tiring to entertain someone, or maybe it’s just me and my lack of interest to text. I guess I’m just not the sort who would try out things that don’t interest me, but evidently some girls can even though it’s wrong on so many levels, bitch please.
- In case you’re wondering, words in italics are like that for a reason.
“Something’s made your eyes go cold”
“You and I walk a fragile line
I have known it all this time
But I never thought I’d live to see it break”
23rd Feb
- Today’s weather is beyond awesome, I can actually feel the warmth of the sun on my skin!
- I can only go back to SG in July (meaning I’ll only get < 3 months in SG) because fieldwork’s during my summer break. )’:
- How is it more expensive for me to fly home in July as compared to June?! For a particular airline, it was a £500 difference!
- Viber calls with Cal and Messiah!
- Fml morning when the subject of my thoughts appeared in front of me. ‘Out of sign, out of mind’ plan fail.
- And I just went for a jog again, this time I survived the whole route + more and I came home to do sit ups. I deserve a pat on my back! teehee.
- I figured that the first 10 mins into jogging is the most painful, but you just have to tell yourself to keep going and not stop, soon you’ll realise that you don’t even wanna stop at all. Similarly, it’s always painful at the beginning after an end but you just have to keep going, it’ll eventually get easier and you’ll get better, I know I will. As Florence sings it, “it’s always darkest before the dawn”.
